08-Oct-2020 Another skwered morning - Uttapam & Arrogance

 So, morning started with same annoying thoughts repeating my my mind what all cheap stuffs she told me and how she manipulated me every time to cover up her parents, her sisters, and her sisters' husbands.

Anyways, my problem, not able to get rid of all these when she is around me and especially when she makes she annoyed facial expression which is frequent since I returned to Pune with my parents. 

So, usual stuffs - I started my day with yoga post all other morning stuffs. She was already doing yoga in balcony and I joined her. I saw her and sensed again her mind to be somewhere else and saw her annoyance on her face. Whatever it is in her mind, I don't care anymore. I did it for long, and suffered multidirectional a lot. Not any more.

One observation, she has stopped helping me in doing anything - cooking, water boil, milk boil, utensils etc. etc. when needed. Instead, she has added her demand onto me like bring water for her, boil it, prepare food for her with her any help, clean utensils, bring food for her. So, the change is clearly visible. I know why. This is because of her narrow thought that it is my parents, I have to do. Plus if I am doing for my parents, why can't for her. In nut shell, screw me more.

Maid didn't come today morning, so I sent to prepare food and she came to spread the uttapam when I was already doing it. May be she sensed my understanding her steps to screw me when I said 'Now, you have stopped even taking water for yourself'. Anyways, she started spreading the uttapam batter slowly and tawa was already very hot (new iron tawa) so I tried pull the kalchhul to spread it quickly and uniformly. She immediately resisted and said 'itna pagal kyun ho rahe ho'. I said I am taking it to spread quickly and said 'tum itna arrogance kyun dikha rahi ho'. She started raising her voice, so did I and went away to let her do whatever she want instead of continuing the usual mud-war with her.

After we prepared the uttapam and severed my parents, she refused to eat saying you said 'I am arrogance, so I will not eat'. I am already not happy with her for long because of actually her arrogance nature. So, I left the plate in kitchen and said I don't care if you eat or not. And even I didn't have the breakfast.

One thing for sure, she will NEVER CHANGE her arrogance attitude and I too have changed because of her maniac nature. 

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So, she stood to prepare lunch for everyone and with another argument she said I will not go to prepare the lunch. Then after i stood to prepare lunch, she came and helped. 

We have not taken anything so far, not even the lunch prepare just now. 

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Arrogance continued even in night and we didn't have dinner. 

My reaction - Bhad me jaye !! Enough already, can't tolerate her any more.

This life she screwed, no more. Just no more.